This Journey

Back from LA

Hello lovely followers.

I got back from LA on Sunday night after a long but fun week. I filmed three days total on the pilot I was working on- I’m only a guest star for a few episodes if it gets picked up. I can’t really share any details until I’m told that it is getting picked up. All I can say is that it’s a comedy and it’s hilarious. I had such a great time filming. The cast and crew were all so nice and caring.

When I wasn’t filming, I was driving around LA going from audition to audition. Since my Mom couldn’t come out with me this time, I was with a lovely woman with whom I’d worked with on ‘Lilith’ and ‘The Kings of Summer’.

I went to Venice Beach on Saturday afternoon and got a terrible sunburn which is just now starting to turn into a tan. I looked like a tomato for a few days.

Anyways, I’m back in North Carolina now with my family… spending most of my time doing school work. But hey, I can’t complain. I’ll be graduating later this year compared to next June if I had stayed in public school.

On a personal note, I’m happy to say that I have found the most wonderful and supportive boyfriend in the world and he makes me very, very happy. He lives back in my hometown in Ohio and I’m planning on visiting him and my other friends in a few weeks. Yay!

I’ve been in North Carolina for 16 nights and 15 days. It feels like I’ve been here for months, seriously. I haven’t even started my damn online school yet! My guidance counselor is taking forever to get my transcript to the admissions counselor at my new school. It’s incredibly frustrating knowing that I can’t do anything to speed up the process.

Other than that, I’ve been getting a ton of auditions lately since it’s pilot season. (Pilot season= happens at the beginning of every year when a bunch of new television shows are cast). That’s keeping me busy! Even though I am pre-occupied with auditions and such, I am feeling pretty down in the dumps lately. I’m praying my ass off that I’ll get a callback or better yet, book something!!!, that will take me out of NC, even if it’s just for a few days.

Keep your fingers crossed for me <3

Life Update- moving, family, film.

Long time no blog.

I don’t blog much during the summer because, well, it’s summer. I rarely ever sit at my desk and go on the computer, but here I am!

So that’s a wrap on my latest film ‘Toy’s Film’! It wrapped almost a week ago. I was pretty sad to say goodbye to the cast and crew, like I always am when a project ends. I got to film with people who are actually my age, so that was a nice change! I made some great new friends and I will hopefully get to visit them next time I’m in LA, and God knows when that will be.

I’ve been getting a ton of great auditions lately, but one by one I’ve been told “It’s not going further.” As you can see, I haven’t gotten a ton of jobs at all yet in my career. It’s frustrating to not be working as much as I would like to. If it were up to me, I’d be working every single day. I do still have some amazing projects that I am waiting to hear back from. Keep your fingers crossed for me :)

School is coming up fast! This summer really flew by for me. I didn’t film much and I didn’t go on vacation so it was a pretty chilled out and relaxing summer. Like always, I’m feeling very anxious about starting another year. School has always been hard. I don’t exactly belong here. I was talking to my LA agent and she said to me, “People like you never fit in.” And it’s true. Anyone who is so passionate about anything and whose mind is in a far away place never really fits in. That’s how I am. It’s true that I don’t fit in at my school and I only have a very small group of friends. I’m friendly with people and try to reach out, but I’m turned down a lot because I think they get this idea that I’m a snob. THEY think that I think I’m “too good for everyone else.” Which is absolutely not true. I’m a shy person at school and I think people mistake that for me being snobby and not wanting to socialize with them. Understandable, though not the case.

I have been thinking a lot about my future lately. I posted a while ago that my family was moving to North Carolina, which isn’t the case now. My Mom and Dad agreed to let me finish high school here in Ohio before they moved. It’s a huge sacrifice that they made for me and I know that. It makes me realize how blessed I am that I care so much. I do feel guilty though considering that I hate school as much as I do. I watched my sister walk across a stage in June, get her diploma, and throw her graduation cap in the air with the rest of her class. It made me realize how much I wanted to do that too. I’ve been with my classmates for 16 years and even though I don’t exactly fit in, they’re a great and talented group of people that I would love to graduate with. I was telling my parents last night at dinner my plans for the future, and it went a little something like this:

“So. I guess I’m staying here for two more years of high school. And after that, I don’t think I’m going to rush off to Los Angeles like I thought I was going to. After I graduate, I’m going to help you move to North Carolina and help you get settled in. I want to spend time with you all before I move really far away.” My Dad added, “Oh you won’t be here for two more years. You’re not going to be here much longer.” It might seem like an odd thing to say, but it meant a lot. My Dad was really saying that he believes I’ll book something soon that will whisk me away from here. “We support you 100%. If you book something, Mom and Tess (my little sister) are going with you.” My Dad is currently living in North Carolina, and will continue to live there alone for the next two years while I graduate here. My Dad is sacrificing seeing his family so that I can finish school. I think he is the most incredible man I’ve ever known.

My Mom said that she and Tess wouldn’t move out to LA with me if I didn’t already have a paying job lined up there. Makes sense. Still, the fact that they are completely supportive just makes me so excited for my future. I know I have good things ahead of me, I can feel it.

I am just getting awfully unpatient here in Ohio. Every project that comes my way is another opportunity to escape and start living the life that I want to live. I’m ready for it to happen.

Short Film :)

So I’m finally on spring break this week, thank God! The only problem is that I have to take drivers education classes every morning for 4 hours. It’s awful.

On the other hand, I found out yesterday that I booked a short film :) Hooray! I’m being flown out to Los Angeles at the beginning of May to film for a little over a week. It’s a cute story about the relationship between a sister and brother.

I’m getting ready right now to record an audition for the show Army Wives. Fun fun.
Happy spring break!

So I already found out that I didn’t get the big audition that I came out here for. But luckily, I have 3 new auditions today and one more tomorrow :)
Things are still going great!

Ready to go into a workshop session with the casting director of the show!

P.s. the weather is absolutely gorgeous!!!!

Big Week in Los Angeles!

My lack of posts has been pathetic, I know. But this past week has been really crazy!

First of all, I started my second semester of school. All of my classes changed so I had a bunch of things to do. It was like the first day of school all over again. Gross.

But last weekend my manager called me and told me that the casting director for a TV show that I auditioned for really liked my audition. I was a little shocked considering after my audition, I threw away my lines thinking “Wow, I bombed that.” Little did I know, I’d be on my way to Los Angeles tomorrow to audition in front of the producers and the entire network team for the show!!! AHHH!

I wish I could say what I was auditioning for, but I can’t quite yet. Not unless I book the role. I’ll just say that this project is huge and would REALLY start off my career as an actress. Keep your fingers crossed for me!!!

I’ll blog while I’m in Los Angeles when I get the chance :)