This Journey

Back from LA

Hello lovely followers.

I got back from LA on Sunday night after a long but fun week. I filmed three days total on the pilot I was working on- I’m only a guest star for a few episodes if it gets picked up. I can’t really share any details until I’m told that it is getting picked up. All I can say is that it’s a comedy and it’s hilarious. I had such a great time filming. The cast and crew were all so nice and caring.

When I wasn’t filming, I was driving around LA going from audition to audition. Since my Mom couldn’t come out with me this time, I was with a lovely woman with whom I’d worked with on ‘Lilith’ and ‘The Kings of Summer’.

I went to Venice Beach on Saturday afternoon and got a terrible sunburn which is just now starting to turn into a tan. I looked like a tomato for a few days.

Anyways, I’m back in North Carolina now with my family… spending most of my time doing school work. But hey, I can’t complain. I’ll be graduating later this year compared to next June if I had stayed in public school.

On a personal note, I’m happy to say that I have found the most wonderful and supportive boyfriend in the world and he makes me very, very happy. He lives back in my hometown in Ohio and I’m planning on visiting him and my other friends in a few weeks. Yay!

Los Angeles here I come! Exciting news!

So I’m headed off to LA tomorrow morning :) I am so excited. I booked a hilarious pilot, but I can’t give any details as of now. I’m hoping it will get picked up and it has a good chance because the lead is a well known celebrity. I only film two days total (they condensed all my scenes into two days) so I can spend the rest of the week meeting directors, producers, and going on a lot of callbacks! There’s a lot of stuff going on with me right now and I couldn’t be happier :)

ready to move on.

Ugh, what a long day and awful day.

I spent 6 hours driving in the car with my Mom and little sister to my Grandparent’s house in Ohio. We are here now.

Along the way, my Mom was scolding me for never wanting to audition for Disney or Nickelodeon projects. In her opinion, I am losing out on major opportunities. Some of you may agree with that. I know girls that I’ve worked with that would DIE to be on Disney or Nickelodeon. That’s great for them, truly… but that’s not who I am. Never have I ever pictured myself on either of those channels. I think people who audition for shows on those channels have to be extremely charismatic, happy, and bubbly people. That’s not who I am. I’m not bubbly or incredibly outgoing. I have more of a dark side and keep to myself for the most part.

I’m not saying I’m “too good” for Disney or Nickelodeon at all. It’s honestly just not who I am and not the kind of career I want. I am drawn to projects that have incredible story lines and deep characters, and that make me feel excited to want to work on them. The last thing that I would want to do is book a role that I didn’t want in the first place when there are other girls out there who would die for that role. That’s not fair.

I want to work on projects that I love. I don’t want to work on a project just for the money or the chance to be famous. I don’t care about either of those things.

I haven’t worked on anything since this past summer. That’s a long time without work. Because I haven’t done anything recently, my parents are apparently getting frustrated with me and think that I’m being too picky with the projects that I audition for. My Dad always jokes around saying “Why don’t you just book something?” Lately, I haven’t been taking it as a joke. All I want in the world is to be acting again and working on something. Let me tell you, it’s a lot fucking easier said than done.

You hear celebrities say “I was rejected so much before I booked (insert project name here).” Celebrities say that AFTER they become famous. I’m here to tell you, right now, as a struggling actress… that it is VERY true. I have auditioned for hundreds of things. Literally hundreds. The number of projects on my IMDB page is 9. I have come so incredibly close to booking that ONE project that would be my “big break”. I’ve come so close, so many times. I’m just waiting for that one project to come along that I’m perfect for.

Until then… I feel as if I’m on my own. Sure, my friends support me but they don’t understand. No one really understands unless they’re in the same position as I am. It can be incredibly lonely at times… to not have someone that I can relate to. And now that my parents don’t understand me anymore, this whole thing is just going to get a lot harder.

I can’t describe in words how anxious I am to move to Los Angeles and actually start living my life. I’m done here and I’m ready to move on.

emmastoletheworld asked: Moises Arias is promoting Toys House so much on twitter! How cool is that for you?

It’s pretty damn cool. Most of the famous cast members are promoting the film.

I am truly honored to be in ‘Toy’s House’ and so happy that I got to meet Moises!

 (Nick Robinson, Me, Moises Arias)